Three Cheers(or beers) for New Beginnings!

My new place feels more like home to me than any place I have ever lived. The posters on the wall make it mine, but the feeling in my heart is what matters. I take cues from the things around me, signs I know the earth is sending me. The first night I was here as I rolled over in bed I caught a glimpse of the international bridge and I knew in that second everything was going to be O.K. I have a knack for fucking things up in life. If something can go wrong it usually does and it's usually due to my poor judgement and timing. But..when all else fails I've learned to point myself northward and dream. Look to the vast expanse that lies before me and think about everything I want to get out of this life and while I'm dreaming my heart rate slows, my breath returns to normal, and my cheeks dry. I feel as if something big is going to happen. Something to change me for the better. It could be another epic semester at school, the friends, education, and memories that I get from Lake State are really the only things I have to hold onto up here. However, secretly I hope it's a boy...I know, I know, how cliche' but I spent all winter alone and then summer shows up and I get this desperate shred of hope that I may just find someone so I never have to be alone through the winter again. But, no matter what comes to me in this new stage, in this new place, I'll be ready for it. That's the new me ready for anything and desperately hoping it comes.